At what point do you give up? At what point do you say, "That's enough"? When do you say, "It's over"?
Never.
Don't miss God's answer to your desperation... He is God. He is in control even when things fall apart. One day, the sun will rise and you will see the goodness of God dawn in your life.
My life journey as a wife is one that required so much faith and supernatural strength to hold steadfast and continue trusting in God. Everything pushed me to my limits... to the brink of giving up; to the point of wanting to die so the pain would stop. There was a time when I got so angry with God that I wanted to end my life even if it meant me going to hell.
When my husband's faith in God spiralled down, my faith also did. And his struggle and my struggle to this situation caused so much damage to our marriage. I don't exactly know what's going on in his mind, or what he's going through... all I know is he has shut me out of his life and dealt with it in a way that hurt me as his wife in all ways imaginable and beyond.
That's over 3 years now. Not much has changed in my beloved. If not, he got worse. But something did in me. The pain is still real but my eyes are set on Jesus, the author and finisher of my faith. I am no longer defined by the circumstances that may seem hopeless to man. I am defined by God's grace, love, goodness, faithfulness and promises. One day, my husband's faith will be restored and he will be a changed man forever. I pray as often as I can for him anticipating that day.
One day.
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